You are just two months old in these pictures.
You and I started our very first mommy and me class session and had a blast! It’s so wonderful to have found a place where there are at least 11 other babies who were born within days of you. I can’t wait to see you all grow up together. After class, I would sometimes take you to the cute little park next door so you could see the ducks play in the pond.
We also started to go to the Santa Monica farmers’ market together with some of our favorite neighbors who turned into one of our best friends! Though you were so active when I put you down, you would instantly sleep whenever I wore you or put you in the stroller. So walking to the grocery store and farmer’s market trips automatically turned into your outdoor naptimes.
You would look forward to bath time and enjoyed splashing in the water. Your hair would get all cute and curly whenever it was wet. I enjoyed this beautiful ritual of bathing you while playing soft music, and then massaging your little body in sweet almond oil.
We miss daddy when he’s away now that he’s gone back to work at the office, but we love greeting him with a special song and dance once he arrives! My favorite part of the day is seeing how big you smile when we start doing our silly little song and dance, and how your eyes get that extra special sparkle seeing your daddy return after a long day.
Mommy & Me class
Regular stroller walks to the grocery store
Our neighbors became one of our best friends! We would go on walks together, went to the farmer’s market together, and had frequent playdates 🙂
It was such a joy to have you tag along to our weekly brunch date. It was a tradition your daddy and I had kept since we practically met, so it was wonderful to be able to bring you with us everywhere 🙂
You loved seeing Uncle Ron & being with Aunt Alana. You even slept in her arms!
Drogo loved checking in on you to make sure you were comfortable during your naps.
Drogo also liked to check in on you to make sure you’re having a good time when we went out for walks.
We were so obsessed with your feet. Your perpetual demand for a foot rest started around this age. I happened to be your favorite foot rest.
You loved bath time!
Our massages only lasted a few minutes since you were already so active and trying to be on the go at this age.
Our little meetings
We love you so much we feel like we’re going to burst.
Mommy & Daddy
“Working” from home.
Sareena has always been SOOO easy. So easy that I thought I could help my husband with his start up AND start my own organic clothing brand for babies. I really thought it would be so cute and so much fun to start my own brand that’s dedicated to Sareena. I began daydreaming about different designs and products I could release. I’d even have Sareena lay in her rock’n’play and set her up next to my desk and show her possible designs and color schemes. We’d have little “meetings” and it was just so cute acting like she was my partner in this and as if we were making every decision together. I had a professional logo created, I sought out suppliers and manufacturers, and I developed my own PR & marketing strategies. I would get excited about the possibility of how the brand could grow with Sareena by introducing more and more products that coincide with her age. I had a whole plan set and I was ready to take this on without sacrificing any time away from my daughter and husband.
No. That was SO unrealistic and would have taken WAY too much time away from Sareena and Sameer (for god’s sake I barely have time to blog). I totally underestimated the amount of time that I would have had to put into this venture. It just wasn’t possible to do it all, I was spreading myself too thin. It made me distracted enough to not spend enough time with Sareena when she was awake or Sameer when he came home from work. I was constantly feeling so guilty.
Mothers who have to work from home: I don’t know how you do it while keeping your sanity! For a very brief moment, I understood your plight. It seems like working from home would give you the best of both worlds, but really it’s more like not being able to pay enough attention to your child and not being able to pay enough attention to your work either, resulting with the feeling like you’re half assing both. And then there’s also the task of cooking and running the household. I got a taste of the “working from home” world and it just wasn’t for me! And my “work” was basically a hobby.
As I began posting on my blog, I started receiving several design collaboration requests from existing brands to launch my own line within the company. I was so tempted to accept, but I just couldn’t afford to put in the energy and time commitment. Looking back many months later, I have zero regrets. The timing just wasn’t right for me. Once I stopped pursuing this, I felt a huge sense of relief and as if a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Opportunities may present themselves again in the future, and if the timing is ever right I would love to embark on that route, but right now I have my hands full with a bouncing baby girl. And I wouldn’t have it any other way ☺
All in all, that was really short lived but still a challenge I felt like I had to go through in order to realize that Sareena really would be taking up all my time. Not because she’s so demanding at this age, but because she will only get more and more active and I do not want to miss anything. I often caught her staring up at me in awe, and when I looked back at her she would give me the biggest smile on her face, as if she was just waiting for me to acknowledge and notice her. That melted me and broke my heart. The most important parenting you do happens during the first year of a baby’s life. It sets the tone and foundation for the years to come. Trust is built, connections are established, and healthy ways to express emotions are developed. I just know that I couldn’t miss any of her moments, no matter how big or how small. I want to be present through all of it. I don’t want to be a distracted parent who is too busy to pay attention to her own child, especially for something that’s not even a necessity. There’s truly nothing I enjoy more than spending time with my daughter. She is my dream come true <3 With love, Shveta